Why fear?

Hello everyone,  I just wanted to start off today and say a big thank you to anyone who has come across this and stopped to read it, even if you only read the title.  I was hesitant at first to write any of this down because I was fearful for how people would react.  I was almost ashamed of having anxiety and depression, but at the end of the day I realized I was not the only one.  The more I spoke about my problems the more I found that a lot of people share the same struggle.  It made me feel better, not better that there are other people who suffer but better in the fact that people can relate to what I am experiencing.  I find it odd how many times in life it is almost taboo to speak about certain topics, but lately I have found that this issue has become more of a talking point than ever before.  It is a shame to see a child who is diagnosed with depression and anxiety, but if that child grows up with the notion that they are not alone and they are not the only one who has these feelings, it can bring hope for a brighter future.  Many times I would read an article and see what others were going through and I almost would curl up with fear, because if I spoke out about these issues would people look at me differently?  Would people assume that I couldn't function?  The answer to those questions is an overwhelming NO- it is OK to feel these things, many many people in this world suffer from these illnesses and function each an every day.  The more I learned about the illnesses I found myself becoming more open to the idea of being able to talk to others about it, and I no longer had the fear of doing this.  However making that first step in speaking to someone was one of the toughest things I have ever done.  Once again those thoughts of how people would look at me kept creeping up and I felt ashamed of myself.  But I found strength in relating to people with the same issues.  So this post is shorter than the rest but still carries a message, so for today let's try to take that first step out against our fear and open up to someone.  SECOND!  Yes second- let's be someone other people can come to if they have these issues, it is important not only to find comfort for yourself, but if you are able to share your experiences with others, it could open their eyes to a new world.

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