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From the Outside

Have you ever heard the phrase: "from the outside everything may look fine", or some other variation.  Many times I feel that people only see what they want to on the outside and not get to know the person you really are.  I know that times I really feel judged and like an outsider but once you get to know me your opinion may change.  However in today's society it is much easier to keep to yourself and not be put in situations where people may get to know you.  A lot of times when I am around certain groups of people, I immediately feel like I am being judged as the weird person or the quiet one.  Many times I have been told that I am too quite and for me that is a defense that I set up for myself.  I often times struggle with small talk and will just end up saying something really awkward...  It happens for often than not, even with people that I know.  Lord knows I hate it when that happens, I tend to think about it the rest of the day and kick myself for saying whatev

Believing is Seeing

"I'll give you everything that I've got left, follow you down and give you my last breath".  ~ Gideon. Many times I struggle with self worth and thinking that I am not up to anyone's standards.  Recently an opportunity has presented itself to me and I can't seem to get out of my own way.  I feel as if I am not good enough to do this new challenge, I feel like I can't live up to the expectation that has been set forth.  I seem myself as less than everyone and that is a serious struggle for me and really is the cause of most of my depression and anxieties.  I often times when in a group setting, think that people are looking at me like I am weird or something to that effect.  I feel as if people see me in a different light than who I truly am.  Once you get to know me, I promise it is worth your time :).  I am an introvert who doesn't like crowds or speaking to new people, but lately I have been trying to push past those barriers.  I recently watched