Depression Can Happen

 You know how fast life can change, over these past 15 months, I can honestly say that life has changed drastically.  These have been some of the hardest months I've ever faced.  I'm not sure what I did along the way to deserve this misfortune but here we are.  I realized that we were riding a high for so long that eventually the bottom had to fall out.  Well it did and it soaked everyone in its wake.  I look at pictures from that time frame and the pain I feel is immense.  Looking back at our happy smiling faces and not knowing what we would face in the future is heartbreaking.  If I could go back to the person I was 15 months ago and prepare him for the challenges ahead, I would in an instant.  But the story and show must roll on right?  Time doesn't stop for us even when we are going through all of the challenges we face on a daily basis.  We have lost family members, lost jobs, loss, loss loss loss loss loss.........  It se...

 As the title suggests, it's been a while huh?  Have you ever felt like you were less than what you really are?  I face this many times a day honestly...  Well hourly really...  I run into self defeat from the moment I open my eyes to the moment I fall asleep, I can't help it and I know it is a bunch of shit, but hey we are human right?  I have hit some snags recently that have caused me to revert back into a shell of who I was working hard to become.  Many times, I feel like I am not good enough for the people in my life, I replay the times that I have failed and let those outweigh what I could have done well or good during that day.  Most days I feel like my friends barely tolerate me and just keep me around for the memories we once shared. I know that things change with time and I have as well. It's tough to feel like this everyday and I know that these things are exaggerations built on by my anxiety and depression.  I know people get frus...

 Well here we are, back at it again.  I know that a lot of times in life, situations get hard.  You get down on yourself and feel like you are not enough.  I experience that quite often within my daily walk of life.  I know that most people out there doubt their abilities and dreams.  I know that a lot of times we have this brick wall that stares us in the face, daring us to try to move past it.  But what if we did move around the wall?  What would be on the other side of that wall?  Would it be another wall?  Would it be a place that you have always wanted to reach?  Well the answer to that could be difficult, sometimes we move past one wall and smack right into another one.  We often times get stuck where we are and accept that as the reality we live in.  I know that I have gained a lot of weight recently and when my daughter saw me going down a slip and slide - she yelled out "here comes a big boy!".  Admittedly I ...

 I hate therapy....  But I hate myself less because of it.  That's it, that's the post. Until next time!

 Did you know that the majority of suicides in the US are committed by men?  Growing up I never thought much about men having mental health issues.  But as I progressed in life I began to put the pieces together of my life and just how long I have been sufferings for with my own battles.  Too many times we are told (as men) to wipe the tears from your eyes...  Men don't cry...  I know that past generations have had different standards of dealing with mental health and the stigmas attached to them, however I am proud of my millennials and Gen Z's who are making mental issues a prominent topic of discussion.  Too many men and women walk around today struggling.  Struggling to get out of bed that morning, struggling to go to the job that they dislike.  Struggling while smiling so that they don't burden others with their issues.  How many people do you know if your life that are struggling?  If you knew all of the individuals that strug...

 Life:  We never fully get to where we want to be.  We always seem to want something more even in the best of circumstances.  As the events of the month have unfolded, I am reminded by just how lucky we are.  I often times get lost in the details in life and tend to fall behind by bogging myself down with minor details.  I know that times get tough for us, we often times find ourselves in situations where we may not see an end in sight.  But looking at the recent events that have happened in the world so far, I can comfortably say that if you are reading this, than you are quite lucky.  I do not know what you are going through and I am just a guy on the internet that is typing a bunch of nonsense, but I do know that life is what we make of it.  Often times when I feel down or feel like my dreams may never come to pass and the hope starts to leave, I listen to this (warning, if you are offended by language, then don't listen.):   Lit...