Realization
So I joined a kickball team.... Most of the people I had no idea who they were and they didn't know me at all. So I went with it, one of my best friends convinced me that I should play because it would be fun. I agree that I have really enjoyed being active in a team sport again, it has lifted the spirits a lot. However I was speaking with someone last night and we were joking around and something was said that hit hard. I wont repeat what was said but at that moment it hurt, but once I got to thinking about it, I took it as something I could grow from and not let the words bring me down. I haven't put myself out there lately because I have felt that my anxiety and or depression makes me less than someone else. My personality type is very introverted and it is really tough for me to handle large groups of people or new groups of people. A lot of times I feel like the outsider and I feel like people are looking at me as the kid who doesn't talk and or the weird kid.