Depression Can Happen

Today is one of those days I guess.  I got up bright and early and went to my workout.  I felt good until I started the drive to work.  Lately it I have been letting my emotions get the best of me at work and I know it shows.  I have had a hard time biting my tongue as of late and have just said what I want, I know that is something that needs improving but I am taking it one step at a time.  Most of the time I try to be uplifting and positive but today is just one of those days that I feel down.  Not really sure why to be honest, but it is one of those days where I wish I could just stay home and not do much.  I just feel sad, not sad for anything in particular but just blue.  I know that these days come and go and luckily I have not had one in a long time.  But today is the exception to the rule I guess.  I know that a lot of times we tend to make up scenarios in our mind that play out and I think I have done just that.  Have you...

Time...  What a concept, if you think about it we cannot do anything to change it (aside from daylight savings time).  We are given a certain amount of time here on this earth and we do not know how long that will be for.  Recently my Mother was diagnosed with cancer.  It came as a shock to all of us, but one of the things that I have learned from this experience is that we need to cherish our time each and everyday.  I know that on a daily basis we face challenges and struggles that may hold us back, but my question to you is why would you want to give your time away to something that is minute. ( I say minute but it could seem like a mountain right now, but overall there is nothing that you face that you cannot overcome with a little help).  Every second that ticks off the clock is another moment gone, we cannot get that time back unless we invent time travel and then who the heck knows...  But the time we are given is so precious that we often time...

Funny how some news can change the whole dynamic of what you thought you knew.  Many times we get news that is unexpected and it can shake us to our very core.  Learning how to move through that bit of news is probably one of the hardest things that we will face in our lives.  Many times there is plenty of support at the beginning but once the journey begins, the support tends to fade.  Most of the time people return to their normal lives (which they should) and you and yours are left to pick up the pieces of what is going on.  Those pieces can be difficult at times to pick up and put back in place, but they are never impossible to return to what once was a complete picture.  I know that the challenges that we face on a daily basis help shape us into who we are but damn is it tough.  We tend to never prepare enough for the "what ifs" in life and when they occur we are left in shambles.  Many times I think I am prepared for any bit of news that co...

Eventually at some point in our lives we are faced with a situation that no one can ever expect.  It can range from various events but none the less we cannot be fully prepared for what may lie ahead.  At times I often wonder if what we go through in this life does not provide us a better eternity.  I'm not sure if those of you who are reading this believe in a higher being (whatever that may look like for you) but I often wonder if we are given certain situations that shape us into who we need to be for the future.  Recently my family received some news surrounding a family member that none of us were expecting.  However we must take it one step at a time, much like you who are reading this.  Whatever situation you face, you have to take it one step at a time.  We do not grow (traditionally) by leaps and bounds, but rather slow and steady.  I know at times it is tough to find that inner strength and courage to keep pressing forward, but in the e...

Ah that word has appeared once again in this blog.  I know that people may be tired of hearing, "Oh you've just got to have hope that things will change".  That may be true but it takes a lot of practice to have the kind of hope that can change a circumstance.  Hope is one of those uphill battles that you may face on your day to day journey.  Now having hope does not mean that your journey is going to be easy, but having hope can give you the drive to keep going through whatever you face to become better.  If we have hope and or give hope to someone then you may change their course of their life forever.  You never know what impact you are going to have throughout the day when you see people.  For instance, you could have a friend or family member that may battle some of the same issues as you, try to lift their spirits some.  Make them smile, bring them a moment of joy that can't be replaced.  I know that the feeling of joy can be fleeting,...

Lately it has been a struggle to write something and try to be positive when I have my own demons I have been facing a lot lately.  Sometimes we can get stuck in our own ruts and it is hard to provide some positive outlook when you yourself are not doing so well.  I say not doing well, not in the sense that I am in a dark room hiding from everyone, but I was having panic attacks that until recently I have never had.  To be honest, they scared the shit out of me.  I hate every second of them and I knew that the cause of the panic was irrational and silly but in the end it is a tough task to convince yourself that you are going to be ok.  It is like telling someone who is in combat that the bullets wont hurt, it is tough to believe and even harder to work through.  The residual effects of those panic attacks can linger for days and once you have one, you are unfortunately bound to have another one, or the probability is higher for one.  For those of you...

Lately it has been a struggle for me to write.  I feel like I have hit a wall with writing this.  Most of the time I just question if this is even worth it.  I'm not looking for validation here, just getting out how I feel.  I think many times it is easier to just not do something than to push yourself to do it.  I wake up four days out of the week at 4:20 in the morning to go and work out.  However the actual drive to get up in the morning is not there.  As a matter of fact I dread going, but once I am done I feel great that I got up and completed what is set in front of me.  However let's look at that previous statement, I dread going.  I dread getting up in the morning and find it hard to come up with the motivation to keep going with it.  I feel so out of place with being there that I just keep those feelings in my heart and start to believe that I shouldn't be there.  I struggle everyday with trying to move forward with believ...