Where to begin..... On June 23rd of 2025 I lost my mother. It was a heart breaking defining moment in my life. Every time I open my eyes I relive that day over and over in my mind. That Saturday we had such a great day, we went swimming with my kids at her pool. She even got in the water, which she hadn't done for years due to her cancer treatments. My aunt Robin was down for the weekend which made it all that much better. We laughed, swam and enjoyed that brief moment in time that seems so small but holds such joy and heartbreak at the same time. Everyday I am reminded of the fact that I wasn't there. I wasn't there when she left this world, she was alone. I received a call around 5 in the afternoon that Monday from a close family member who asked if I had heard from my mom that day, it wasn't unusual to not hear from her as she was busy at times. She had texted me the day before asking if I needed her to wat...
"We are all born to broken people on their most honest day of living" - Listener, Wooden Heart. Do you ever think that some people have it all together and that their life is perfect? Well you are wrong, we are all fighting some sort of battle that only we know. Many days that battle that we face can consume us and take over our though pattern, but that is where we lose. We lose who we are and who we want to become when we let ourselves get down. We miss out on the opportunities that life has presented us with. We at many times tend to focus on the negative, but in reality we are surrounded by so much of the positive. We tend to overlook the positive and act like it does not exist, but what if you took notice of the positive that surrounds you? What if you turned that negative thought and transformed it to one of a more positive manner. What if I told you that you could essentially rewire your thought pattern? Sounds crazy rig...
Have you ever heard the phrase: "from the outside everything may look fine", or some other variation. Many times I feel that people only see what they want to on the outside and not get to know the person you really are. I know that times I really feel judged and like an outsider but once you get to know me your opinion may change. However in today's society it is much easier to keep to yourself and not be put in situations where people may get to know you. A lot of times when I am around certain groups of people, I immediately feel like I am being judged as the weird person or the quiet one. Many times I have been told that I am too quite and for me that is a defense that I set up for myself. I often times struggle with small talk and will just end up saying something really awkward... It happens for often than not, even with people that I know. Lord knows I hate it when that happens, I tend to think about it the rest of the day and kick...
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