From the Outside
Have you ever heard the phrase: "from the outside everything may look fine", or some other variation. Many times I feel that people only see what they want to on the outside and not get to know the person you really are. I know that times I really feel judged and like an outsider but once you get to know me your opinion may change. However in today's society it is much easier to keep to yourself and not be put in situations where people may get to know you. A lot of times when I am around certain groups of people, I immediately feel like I am being judged as the weird person or the quiet one. Many times I have been told that I am too quite and for me that is a defense that I set up for myself. I often times struggle with small talk and will just end up saying something really awkward... It happens for often than not, even with people that I know. Lord knows I hate it when that happens, I tend to think about it the rest of the day and kick myself for saying whatever it was that did not make sense at the time. Most of the time I feel that people don't want to get to know me for who I am because they may see this blog and think that it may require work or they do not want to be around someone who may have a bad day every now then or get caught up in their thoughts. I struggle with this everyday sadly, I know that I have made efforts to step out of my comfort zone to be less quite, but at the end of the day I still feel that I am not good enough for most. However with the recent events of life, I have discovered that we often times put ourselves in self made boxes. These boxes keep us from enjoying our lives and we tend to shut the world out. It is tough to make that determination within yourself to step out of the box we have made but in the end if we ever want to grow, we eventually have to take one step out of the box.
For today, live your life. Life is way to short to be stuck where you are. We often times get caught up within ourselves but I can guarantee you that life is beautiful and you have much to offer to anyone who is willing to listen. You will come across people who just don't want to get to know you for you, but forget them and move on. You will find people who like you for you and are willing to invest in the time to take part in you and your life. Don't be afraid of who you are right now, because who you are today does not mean who you will become tomorrow. You are worth more than you will ever know and being here today to read this proves that you are willing to take a step out of the box you have made. Tomorrow is not guaranteed and we never know just how long we have here on this earth, so why not live your life to the fullest. Go and be yourself and those who truly care about you will stick by your side and those who are only there for a season will come and go. Don't be afraid of who you are now, but rather focus on trying to be better than you ever expected. Stay strong today with whatever you may be facing and grow towards what you dream of. Be brave and kind.
Until next time!
For today, live your life. Life is way to short to be stuck where you are. We often times get caught up within ourselves but I can guarantee you that life is beautiful and you have much to offer to anyone who is willing to listen. You will come across people who just don't want to get to know you for you, but forget them and move on. You will find people who like you for you and are willing to invest in the time to take part in you and your life. Don't be afraid of who you are right now, because who you are today does not mean who you will become tomorrow. You are worth more than you will ever know and being here today to read this proves that you are willing to take a step out of the box you have made. Tomorrow is not guaranteed and we never know just how long we have here on this earth, so why not live your life to the fullest. Go and be yourself and those who truly care about you will stick by your side and those who are only there for a season will come and go. Don't be afraid of who you are now, but rather focus on trying to be better than you ever expected. Stay strong today with whatever you may be facing and grow towards what you dream of. Be brave and kind.
Until next time!
Love you now and always, sweet man. Speaking or quiet you remain one of my favorite peeps.
ReplyDeleteMatt, I just happen to see this. I don't know if you will see this response or not, but please know that we care about you man! I'm soo sorry to hear that you deal with anxiety and depression 😢 We have been there and I understand what you are saying. People who haven't been there, just don't get it! It's nothing that you can just snap out of. It's a battle, and has taken medication and lots of prayer to get us where we are today! If there's anything we can do, let us know ( after saying that, I realize that's a hard thing to do when you are going through it) Know that you will be in our prayers 🙏 Love you
ReplyDeleteThank you so much! Your words are a great encouragement :) Thank you for sharing some of your story as well. Love you as well and we will keep pushing forward!
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