A Burden

I have been thinking about this subject for a while now, a lot of times I feel like I am a burden to other individuals around me.  That they simply tolerate me and a lot of times I feel as if I do not have any friends at all.  I know that this may seem crazy to some of you, but I can't help the way that I feel.  Lately I have been feeling this way but it comes in waves.  I don't always feel like I am just an afterthought.  I don't know what the answer is to all of it either.  If I had 18 people around me wanting to hang out at once, I think my anxiety would climb as well....  Oh what a tricky mind we can have sometimes.  Sometimes it will not make sense, but don't ever discredit your feelings and think that they are dumb.  A lot of times we can't help the way that we feel, but if you stay in that mindset that will eventually cause you more harm than good.  Eventually you will start to believe the lie that you are not worth it.  Eventually you will see yourself as less than the next person.  However you are worth more than you can ever imagine.  Sometimes I think about people who are fighting for their lives with a terminal condition and often think that they would love to be where I am now.  I see people fighting cancer on a daily basis and they are smiling and trying to push through the pain.  Why can't we do the same?  Why can't we take that mindset that we have and turn it into a positive?  I KNOW THIS IS EASIER SAID THAN DONE, trust me I am going through it now.  But what if we flipped the script and rise above our current feelings and broke the mold that we have set for ourselves.  What if we can give people a smile and or the strength to carry on in this life?  What if you are the reason that someone is still fighting.  Even though you yourself are going through your own battles, you could be the spark that sets someone else free from their pain.  You could be the smile that they desperately needed, you could help them rise above their situation and see the light.  You could be their lighthouse when all is dark.  If we help others who are going through a struggle, we find ourselves coming out of our own.  I do not know what you are all facing on a daily basis, but know that you are never a burden, that you are worth every second of every day.  Don't ever give up the gift of life, we are here for such a short window-make the most of it.  I know that at times we may feel like we cannot contribute to others or to ourselves but once you realize you are amazing the way you are, anything is possible.  Don't give up the fight for better days, find your light and strength.

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