Depression Can Happen

 You know how fast life can change, over these past 15 months, I can honestly say that life has changed drastically.  These have been some of the hardest months I've ever faced.  I'm not sure what I did along the way to deserve this misfortune but here we are.  I realized that we were riding a high for so long that eventually the bottom had to fall out.  Well it did and it soaked everyone in its wake.  I look at pictures from that time frame and the pain I feel is immense.  Looking back at our happy smiling faces and not knowing what we would face in the future is heartbreaking.  If I could go back to the person I was 15 months ago and prepare him for the challenges ahead, I would in an instant.  But the story and show must roll on right?  Time doesn't stop for us even when we are going through all of the challenges we face on a daily basis.  We have lost family members, lost jobs, loss, loss loss loss loss loss.........  It se...

 As the title suggests, it's been a while huh?  Have you ever felt like you were less than what you really are?  I face this many times a day honestly...  Well hourly really...  I run into self defeat from the moment I open my eyes to the moment I fall asleep, I can't help it and I know it is a bunch of shit, but hey we are human right?  I have hit some snags recently that have caused me to revert back into a shell of who I was working hard to become.  Many times, I feel like I am not good enough for the people in my life, I replay the times that I have failed and let those outweigh what I could have done well or good during that day.  Most days I feel like my friends barely tolerate me and just keep me around for the memories we once shared. I know that things change with time and I have as well. It's tough to feel like this everyday and I know that these things are exaggerations built on by my anxiety and depression.  I know people get frus...